You see often we find ourselves questioning how can God let all these bad things happen to us. I have come to learn what I call God's Reset. God can see the future and he allows things to take place to remove bad people from your circle. I thought I had real friends but then after all this I looked back and watched not only how they were trying to poison my mind and heart but also the mind and heart of my wife.
God looks at people from the inside out and he knows there true intentions. I lost everything I was left from 7 figures to nothing but $7.00 in one account. I asked God what did I do to deserve all this and even questioned why he would just not take my life. I lost my one true love, the girl who made me learn how to love. I lost my children who are my everything. I lost my home, a place that I worked so hard to build and maintain. I lost my business to thieves and liars. In the end I lost everything, or so I thought.
Everything that I thought was important does not matter. I learned my wife was never really happy with me and being with me was holding her back from becoming and being the person she truly desired to be. I learned those friends were envious and jealous and looking only to destroy what I created. I learned my home was a place my kids and wife always hated and did not even want. So really and truly God took everything that was not appreciated and wanted and did a reset.
Now I am alone and all I have in my life is one hour on Fridays to try to let my kids know how much I love them. The rest of my week is spent working and in self reflection. I learned that I worked my whole life 80 hours a week for everything to be stolen and taken from me in less than 60 days. 27 years and I walked away with some tools and a desk. I truly felt like committing suicide but could not do that to my children or God. I am slowly building a base and starting from nothing. I take pride in knowing that I will rebuild again but this time I will be letting God lead the way.
I may never have what I had but I also know I will never have those people in my life to hurt me again. So it is a trade off that I have learned to appreciate. I will always love my children and spend whatever time I am allowed showing them how much I love them. I will always keep with me the good memories that my wife and I had and leave all the bad ones in the past. God has shown me that you can not live with hate in your heart as this will destroy you. Through our divorce I learned my wife lied to me from the beginning of our marriage and the fact that she felt that she had to hurt more than the lies.
The most important lesson I have learned is only through the love of God can you become complete. You can not drive forward if your car is in reverse so your past in gone and your future is what you have to focus on. I now focus on preparing for my children's future, while they had everything and now I have nothing to offer them but love, I will reset and rebuild. Gentleman, if you find yourself in place where your heart is heavy and the one person you loved more than anything in this world is gone, remember God gave his son for us and that one person comes no where close to the sacrifice that God has made for us.
Love yourself, pray for your loved ones even if they are lost, and forgive your enemies and those who trespass against you. Love and Marriage are things both individuals have to continue learning and working on. Whenever one person choses to lie, hide or cheat the bond is broken. If someone lies to you or you to them there is no longer pure love and we all deserve that. My first half of my chapter in life has been written the second half I sincerely believe that our Lord will make even better. I am grateful that I will see my children and one day be able t be a part of their lives as I have always. Work Hard, Love Harder and Pray Even Harder. God bless and remember God forgives all transgressions those against you have done to you and forgives you. None of our bigger than our lord and savior and it is our duty to live without hate or sin in our heart. No matter what happens or what people do to you, God will provide and through prayer questions, needs and wants will be answered.
Remember times and people change. While I failed in some aspects I succeeded and strived in others. I can know I can not control the past but I have learned how to love and honor those things given to me by God. I have also learned that not everything and everyone I had was given to me by God. Sometimes you learn after that you were forcing situations and relationships that were never really meant to be. If you have someone who no longer wants you and no longer puts God, The Truth and Honesty into your life you are not a failure. It is ok to move on as God will give you what he truly desires for you to have peace. While I love my wife more than anything is this world and no one will ever compare to her, I love my children more. So I honor God by giving her the freedom to become who she wants to be. I pray for her and pray that God gives her everything her heart desires and that the memories she creates in her future are more powerful than everything we have ever had. I pray for her happiness. This will be our last year of marriage and anniversary and I will spend my evening sitting on the very bench I proposed to her on.
Gentlemen Stay Positive
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