This will be my last post about what was once was. I have spent almost a year reflecting on the past. Trying to justify and understand what all this hell I am going through is truly for. It finally hit me that the life I now have and the positivity I have in my heart and my relationship with God is amazing and that my new life cost me my old one. I have read a ton of books and articles and have learned one thing. God knows our thoughts, wants and needs. The devil does not have that power and unless we speak it he has no power to control us. So I will tell you all words are powerful in both negative and positive ways. Say what you truly mean and feel. Do not let moments of anger and pain define your character.
People that do not see your value and honor you the way you want to be honored and loved have no business in your life. We owe nothing to those who benefited from our times, love and hard work. So with all my heart I say good bye to my past and embrace my future. My ex wanted all of the negatives she dreamt about me to be true and in the end it cost us our happily ever after. The truth is I love my children more than anything and I put my personal happiness behind trying to give them a good family home. A place to be loved and live worry free about things like bills, safety and drama. What I could not control was the words and drama being brought into our home by my ex. I am finally at peace in life and in my heart with God at its center. I pray my ex gets what she truly desires and deserves, whatever that is, is between her and whoever she prays too. My heart was once filled and occumpied by the love I had for her. That is space is finally filled by something so much more. Something that brings me true joy, peace and happiness.
Goodbye and take care.
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