There is a moment in life when you realize that everyone you thought was family or friends was not really who you thought they were. Gods removes you from situations and from people that will knowingly hurt you. So this will be short you simply have to make a decision to move on alone. It is a hard choice to decide to finish life without those who you thought would always be there. I was faced with everyone turning their back on me, stealing my life's work and taking the things I loved most.
I reached out in pain looking for inspiring words or maybe just some empathy from someone who I thought would be there. I have never change the way I loved my family but apparently the way I loved them. During a divorce and separation is when you find out if the person you loved ever really loved you. When someone you worked your life for to give them everything you could, someone you made life changing sacrifices from being the person you were destined to become and the person you chose above everything and overlooked their flaws while they pointed out everyone of yours, you discover that you wasted your entire life trying to make something or someone yours who was never truly meant to be yours.
So today the day after my anniversary and the day before my birthday after missing almost a year of special moments I had to make a choice. I had to choose if I wanted to continue to allow people to hurt me and break my heart over and over again or move on. I had to realize the fact that when people you love can move on without you like you don't matter means you never really mattered when you were there.
So while a life of solace is how it will begin you have to chose to move on and in my case start a new chapter with people that will love and miss me. A new set of people where my presence is missed when I am gone. It is time for me to say good bye and learn to say hello to a new life. You have to delete the pictures and the memories and move on. The people you chose moving forward have to be those that will put you first. If you don't do this you will allow them power over you that only God should have. My life may end soon but I will not allow anyone else to hurt me during the time I have left. I hope you chose yourself above those who put you second to everyone else. There is a moment when you realize that you have to quit the devils game along with those he is using against you to hurt you. I may suffer and hurt for days and years to come but I will suffer in silence with God by myside not allowing the satisfaction for those people to feel glory in my defeat and pain.
God Bless Them All It's Over I am No Longer Playing Your Game!
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