Happy Anniversary
Today is Jul 26, 2024 and this day is the most special day of the year. Today is my wife and I’s wedding anniversary. This day marked a day when the two of us not only agreed to marry each other but the day my wife decided to marry me again.
You see a relationship is something that just happens: a spark, a smile, a light touch of the hand, a moment where you put them before you or in my case a pretty girl with braces pulling a ring of a complete stranger in the salad bar line. My wife was brought to me and we were drawn together into a relationship that would be talked about around the world.
People would look at us and not even begin to understand the love that we have for each other. You see my wife was sheltered and wanted to live an exciting life and she did things that a normal teenage girl would want to do. I on the other hand was so protective of her that I wanted to protect her from the world. I never really truly realized that by trying to protect someone from themselves it can be seen as controlling. In my eyes I just wanted to keep her safe from herself. She and I went through 2 plus decades of amazing times together. We have kissed under the stars, walked in the sand of other countries, we have had seafood by ocean, boat rides where she drove and I watched her smile and 1 million more great memories I could list. My wife is the woman that I planned on spending the rest of my life with. She is truly a great woman, but every woman has their breaking point.
Today I realize that through prayer, counseling and time that my wife is not coming back. Many people think and say just move on and start a new relationship. The truth is that my wife is part of my DNA. She to me is like a piece of me that without her with me causes literal pain to breathe. The problem is that I allowed stress, stupid people and my own insecurities to hurt our relationship. When you pull away from the person you love and the person you're supposed to get love from it is true pain. So I tell you from experience that the key to keeping that love and fire going is communication. I never laid a finger on my wife but I realize now the power of words and how ignoring her heart, dreams, goals all drove her to a dark place.
Gentleman, today is a day of wreckoning, a time for all of us to look towards our special lady and ask ourselves,”Are we taking care of their hearts?” Remember as man you are asked a million questions, you are stressed about things that women have no idea about and our personal turmoil for our short term failures and long term dreams eat away at us on a daily basis. Putting that aside we have to remember before all of that was a little girl that gave us their heart. They believed in us and our dreams and put their goals and dreams to the side most times because they wanted to stand behind us and be a part of our dream. My wife or soon to be ex-wife under the county paperwork was an amazing individual. She has changed as have I and we are no longer going to complete this journey of life together.
I have to live with that but I have the pleasure of knowing and the memories of all of our great times together. My days are numbered and I truly wish that today was a day I could hold and kiss my wife, bring her flowers and express to her all the ways that I love her. Those days have passed and she has moved on. So gentlemen before you end up like me losing everything that is truly important to you, I beg of you to make a change. I have changed in so many ways over the past 9 months but unfortunately my changes don’t matter to her. She once prayed for me to love her more, to be gentle with my words and to understand that she will never be perfect. I am almost positive she no longer prays for me or cares if I live or die. In her eyes she believes that a few bad months defines the man I am, making me the devil on earth.
Do not lose your dream girl for a dream job or a dream of success and finances. In reality your dream girl already became a reality and never risk the chance of losing reality for a dream. My home, my family, my children and my wife were everything I ever wanted. She gave me all of that and for greed and immaturity I lost it all. I wish myself a happy anniversary today not because my wife still loves me or because I will get to embrace her and smell her hair and see her smile but because today reminds me of the man I became for a brief period in time and that God has changed me in a way no one else could. I have peace and joy coupled with fear and regret, a total mix of emotions.
Gentleman Love your wife as Christ loves the church and in return your wife will follow you, walk beside you and be the piece of heaven that was given to you by God himself.
If you are in my position guys keep praying, keep God near and pray for your girls new life and happiness. It hurts to know that she will give herself to other men but you have to remember that she is no longer your in her eyes. While under God and in your eyes she will always be your wife, people walk away from faith and stop following God's laws.
Hope this helps all of you on days like the one I am having today. Stayed tuned for more relationship advice on hardships and getting through the demons.
To my former bride and best friend. I will always and forever love you. Every July 26th I will remember the smile on your face, the tears in your eyes and the way your hands shook as we stood in the outing of that Alabama Court House Chapel. I promised you I will provide and protect and I did exactly what I promised. I failed you and caused something that was forged by God be taken away from both of us. Under God you will always be my wife and no matter what man you give yourself to next I know in my heart and soul that you will always love me as well.
You may never see this post and know how truly important you were to me and what a magnificent person you truly are to me but I will continue to pray for your happiness and I will see you again in the next life. If you ever remenice on our times remember two quotes "Hey girl come give me a kiss" and "Psss psss chuka chuka puee kkkk ah" Your favorite thing you always loved. On days you feel lonely remember the lilies and purple flowers I would get you. Most of if you ever really miss us look at our beautiful children and remember even through bad times something beautiful was created. You did that and you are amazing. I don't know who you are, who you want to be or who you will become, but remember the person you were who cooked with me and danced in bayside and your graduation and prom are all the moments that made us, us. I will love you forever and if I should no longer be here one day thank you so much for everything you did for me. You may hate me and not appreciate or remember all the good but I do. You may not love me ever again or now but I have enough love in my heart for both of us. Happy Last Anniversary I will see you in heaven, remember heaven can't get much better than holding you and seeing you smile.
Love You Always, Te Quierro
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